For as long as I can remember I've wanted to write. As in be a writer. Well that’s not quite true, for a time when I was very young I wanted to be a "scientist" but that was when I believed that being a scientist was terribly exciting. Although exactly why I believed this is now beyond me, seeing as Egon from Ghostbusters was my inspiration. Aside from my brief aspirations in the field of science, my interest has always been in writing. It stemmed, as I'm sure many an aspiring author's interest has, from reading (and being read to when I was 'small') fantasy stories. Tales of wonder and magical lands.
The Hobbit is the first book I remember having experience with (again not quite true, there was Dr. Seuss). My father gave me a graphic novel adaption of it and I instantly fell in love with the world. At that age of course I wanted to go there. As I grew a bit older my aims became a bit more realistic. I figured I'd settle from creating a world like that for myself.
I can actually quite clearly remember the day when I was about 10 when I became set in my goal to become a writer. In school we were given homework, to write a short story about an excuse for not having your homework done. I wrote 'The Day I Fell into Hell'. It was a short rhyming story about a boy whose dog takes his homework. He follows the dog and both subsequently fall down a hole in the ground that leads directly to hell. The dog was captured by the devils minions and story dealt with the boys efforts in rescuing his pet. It was a comic affair including dancing demons and a confrontation with Satan himself. Unfortunately the story has been lost over the years. It's a pity I would like to read it again. Anyway after my story was rated 'excellent' by my teacher I was sure I would become a writer. I mean what more do you need? A story rated excellent by teacher, publishers here I come. I was so sure that on the next day I wrote a sequel. 'The Day Fell into Hell Again'.
It was then, at the age of 10, I laid out my maser plan. I would finish school (both primary and secondary) do extraordinarily well and study English in college. It would be at some point during my studies that I would begin my novel. Which at the time was going to be some fantasy epic set in a world on the scale of Tolkien’s middle-earth. But as we know, plans more often than not don't work out so well.
Long story short, I didn't do well enough in school to study English (and didn't do well enough the second time either). And eventually I started working full time in the bookshop. While working my writing dwindled and eventually faded altogether. After some time here, I got my chance at studying English. It was no more than a part time course with a couple of hours college level English each week. That was enough though. As it turned out not getting to study it in the first place was a blessing in disguise. I hated it. Endlessly analytical and boring. It was completely removed form the image I had of the subject in my mind (although I would find studying anything terribly boring). After this realisation I was a bit lost, I figured how could I be a writer if I don't even like the study of English. Luckily this foolish notion wasn't long in my head. As the two aren't at all related, being able to write and studying English. So I gave up the course and went back to my job. This time the writing didn't dwindle so much, I continued. Experimenting with different things, even attempting to write a book. It was about a renegade assassin and his drunken Irish priest sidekick. Managed to get 11 or 12 chapter done before I lost the plot (literally lost it, had no idea what to write/ where to go). Looking back I'm not too fond of that story now anyway.
After not too long I began to feel like I stagnating in my job/ at home. Nothing for me seemed to move. While others around me continued with their studies moving ever forward towards the 'real world' which looming at the end of that academical tunnel. I watched it all from behind the bookshop counter. It became increasingly obvious that I needed to do something. So I decided that I would come here to New Zealand . On the surface this seems like a bold and courageous move, striking off on my own into a new country that I know little about. Well that's only on the surface, look below that and you'll see the real reason. Procrastination. I am somewhat of an expert when it comes to procrastination; and this was my master-stroke. Yes you're hearing me right; my grand epic adventure in New Zealand was naught but a procrastinating maneuver on my part. You see I knew that I would have to make some kind of decision with my life some time very, well it was either or watch 3 years in the bookshop turn into 6, then 6 into 10 etc. etc. So I came here to buy some time. I never realistically entertained thoughts of staying here very long. Inadvertently this maneuver in procrastination has turned out to be one of the best decisions of my life though. I've had a brilliant time and met some amazing people. Some of whom I'm looking forward to seeing again some time soon and others who I am going to miss as I'm sure that I'll never see them again.
It's terribly ironic that, as most of you know my original plan when coming here was to be entirely anti-social, make no friends and wander off into nature. Heh. Well here's why I don't put much faith in having plans. For me at least they nearly always turn out the opposite of what I intend and luckily most of the time for the better.
Wow this has turned into quite a long piece, strange, this actually began life as a journal entry (a journal which is terribly underused, I think this would have been my 6th entry) but somewhere along the way I figured it might make a fitting end to my meanderings. So at this point I'm going to bring it to a close, that is if you're still reading at this point and I haven't bored you to death. This is more sombre than my usual offerings.
As may have guessed this post means I'll be home soon. So the question is what will I do upon my return?
Well as I said I've always wanted to write, so I figure I'll try that. It's not easy though, sifting through my head trying to find things worth writing about, things that will entertain people or even myself. And I think maybe I was never cut out for story writing, though I feel I could tell a decent story, just lack the ability to find the right one. It seems this blog type thing is my strong point. So to find a way to turn that to my advantage.
I'm rambling again, so the end.
This will be the last post in The Meanderings of a Vagrant Irishman abroad. I am no longer a vagrant and soon I won't even be abroad so there doesn't like too much reason to continue it. I hope you've enjoyed my little blog, I certainly have. I am sure I owe it my sanity among other things. Thanks to all you people who have been following me. And to repeat my title.
So I bid you adieu, I'll be seeing you soon.